Blogs are public – I never really took on board just how public until I got hauled over the coals, more or less, for what I had written on one. It was felt that the public acknowledgement of doubts and reservations make me just too – well, in a sense, unsettling, I suppose. Or perhaps hurtful – something far from my agenda. That, in turn, made me feel very hurtfully rejected (we want you, but not all of you). But in another sense, in the sense that I was causing pain without meaning to, it was fair enough.
So I have tried to remember that this blog is a public place. Usually I have enough to speak of in public without inconvenience, as you might say.
This last week it has all been private; the hopes, and joys and frustrations. And I have been silent in public.